As an older sister I can be a real bore when I am not in the mood to have fun. Sometimes trying to make everyone behave and being perfectionistic can leave me feeling empty and unexcited about my relationship with my siblings. I end up getting mad about my siblings efforts to connect through humor and picking on me. Their playful joke about my hair being messy will trigger an out lash from me. One of the strangest things is that I almost always get along with my friend’s siblings and other little kids who can be as annoying as my own siblings. This fact leads me to conclude that getting along and being in the mood for fun is an intentional decision. Ironically deciding to have fun is one of the most difficult things to do.
Now that I am driving my siblings places, I always let my younger teenage brother pull the car around before I actually do the driving. He wants to drive. The other day as usual he pulled the car around, but as I was about to get in, he started slowly driving away wile laughing at me. In an instant I was filled with rage. Why couldn’t he just let me get into the car like a normal person? I was about to yell and gripe him out. As angry words were on the tip of my tongue, I thought “He wants me to chase him. I am going to break out of my boring mold and do it.” I didn’t want to chase him though, because I was angry. Thankfully I decided to push through my anger, and have fun against my will. I chased the car. I was actually having fun. My brother laughed, and let me catch up. If I had griped him out, I would have missed out on the fun and started our car ride with a fight while confirming my boringness to my siblings.